Though we are in love
Sometimes we do hurt each other dry and cry
Everyone has a such experience

I don' know the reason why
I could not find the word to get you back
And I turned my back to you going out
I don't want lose your love in fact

Looking for the word
Just a simple word
To open up closing door of your heart
But it's hard to say for me I'm sorry
I don't loose my faith
I don't loose my nerve
Let me go to see you to say the word
Not to be afraid to face the fear
Is the key of heart

I believe in love, two hearts
I believe in love, two hearts

Thousands of your smile
Getting back when I look back on those days of us
Now I feel they are still calling me

Maybe you're the same as me
Searching for the chance to make it up now
I belive you to be waiting for me
I'll be with you shortly

Looking for the word
Just a simple word
To open up closing door of my heart
Let me try to say just once I'm sorry
Now I close my eyes
Wishing for you smile
My heart beat is synchronize with your one
Not to make up my mind to reach you
Is the key of heart

To meet in this world
Is just a wonder
Now I want to say I was born to love,
fall in love with you,
live in your future
Open up your door
Wrap me in your arms
Let me dive into your heart once again
To try to keep our story going on
Is the key of heart

Tomorrow is the start of Lent (as well as my Dad's bday, HAPPY BDAY DAD!!) so that means giving up something until Easter. However, since I didn't give up anything last year, I'll be giving up more than one thing.

And in order for me to prevent FORGETTING what I promised to give up, I'll post them here.

I won't...
1. Stay on the phone with my guy for more than an hour per day.
2. Not exercise for an hour per day

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There’s something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone

On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded

I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Ah.. the first step has been taken, and now we're on the 1.25 Phase of this whole "fix-it-before-you-die" plan.

Recent events have crossed out at least one of the bad possibilities, but unfortunately it wasn't the worst possibility. I really just hope things go well.. ahh nervous and anxious as hell.

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I'm still such a blind, dense, and an ungrateful idiot. Why do I always have to appreciate things AFTER their occurrences? Everything in this life is so fleeting that it's really stupid how I can't just enjoy where I am now.

...always trying to get more and more and more. I should literally always have a gun pointed to my head, or always be placed in some bad desperate position, just so that I can appreciate life.

Man, when will I permanently WAKE UP?

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/short rant

Soo I gotta write 6 random things about myself:

1. I like maplestory
2. i'm really hungry
3. i had a dream last night that i had a sony vaio and was thinking about taking it to school and downloading maplestory on it, but then i realized: oh, i already did that.
4. i'm going to a ddr tournament in my school today, then i'm going to the stop violence against women concert.
5. uh.. i have class in 5 minutes
6. i wanna scan in that chibi i did for an avatar for me for sleepywood.net XD

there did it

now i gotta tag 6 people.. hmmm.. who should i bother?